For we know that the Law is spiritual, but I am of flesh, sold into bondage to sin. For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate. But if I do the very thing I do not want to do, I agree with the Law, confessing that the Law is good. So now, no longer am I the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh; for the willing is present in me, but the doing of the good is not. For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want.But if I am doing the very thing I do not want, I am no longer the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me.I find then the principle that evil is present in me, the one who wants to do good.For I joyfully concur with the law of God in the inner man,but I see a different law in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin which is in my members.Wretched (wo)man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death?Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, on the one hand I myself with my mind am serving the law of God, but on the other, with my flesh the law of sin. Romans 7
Thank you, Paul for articulating my very state of mind. If there is a place in the Bible that I deeply understand, indeed, this is it: the constant buffeting between my two natures. Currently, my battle is against laziness (lol, only currently, tee hee). My mind and spirit wage war constantly volleying doing what is best and just making it work. Sigh. The battle carries on and currently I have been forced back around the mountain. I will stand tall and fight back, taking the stronghold of higher ground. (Deep breath)God's speed to me.
My time is short with my children. We have so much to accomplish, so much room room for growth regarding their two natures. It's only by grace I can both walk and teach the road. Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord.